I have recently had the time to do some self reflection, and I have come to the realization that a lot of what motivates me, is what is hindering me. I am motivated by seeing people I am in contact with, being changed because of something I did or helped them do. This is great and there is nothing wrong with loving my neighbor (Matt 22:36-40), but I am missing out on the other part of Matt 22:39 – “Love your neighbor as yourself“. I think there is a lot to take from those two words: as yourself. I have allowed myself to become so secondary that I love my neighbor more than myself. My relationship with God has struggled because of this as of late, and that needs to change. I need to seek God’s will in everything I do including helping others. I have to know when to draw the line and have faith that God can fix it. I MUST spend more time connecting with Him because he is the one who gives me life. He is the one who will tell me what I need to do to love my neighbor as myself, because loving God, above all “…is the first and greatest commandment” (Matt 22:38).
