Well… I came to an interesting point in my life. Realizations that my life is more complicated than I thought. I have always thought God has put me on a track that always makes sense. But recently, being totally honest with myself, I realized that I am confused. Wrapped up into many things that I don’t understand. Unable to do what I really desire and doing what others expect me to do because that is what my life has always been about: pleasing others. When I was a kid, that’s all I did was do my best to please my parents and look for their approval.
But God wants something else from me (from all of us). Abraham was called to do things that didn’t make all that much sense and yet he did them, and in that he was declared righteous. Listening to God is the only important thing in life. “18 Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him…” God has promised me things and I don’t understand how that will be. I also don’t see how these promises will come true for me. God is calling me to have faith, faith like Abram (meaning father of many), then given a new name: Abraham (meaning father of a great multitude) yet at that time Abraham didn’t have a child and his wife, Sarah, was way to old to bear a child. I want my new name. I want to believe against all hope that God will deliver me. Help me God.